Matthew 6:33 & 34 “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Since I struggle with daily pain from fibromyalgia and not knowing when I will have strength for the day’s activities and when I won’t, Matthew 6:33 & 34 has really impacted my thinking. I have not been able to work much or finish college, and every time I start a full time job or try to do something to make money it becomes pretty evident that I am not able to physically sustain whatever it is I’m involved in. This makes money very tight since we live on one income, and causes a struggle inside me to fully give God my complete trust that HE will provide our every need. The other part of this is when I’ve been very sick and bedridden for weeks or months at a time, and loose self-worth. I begin to wonder when I will get well, or I will get depressed about how I am letting my family down since I am unable to care for my family or even be with them at times. This is very hard for me since my personality and greatest joy is being a caregiver and also completing detailed tasks. I find it hard to have joy when people are caring for me; it actually makes me feel worthless.
God has used these two verses in Matthew and also his faithfulness to our family to show me that if I first seek HIM and His Kingdom (the things of God), he will supply. I’ve had unknowing people bring food over at the last minute on days when I was not feeling well enough to cook and wasn’t sure what or how I was going to do that. I’ve had people bring us clothes when I was beginning to wonder how I would get them for us. God really is faithful when we seek him, he has provided so much. But also, he has been faithful to give me contentment in my heart to know that even if I cannot complete daily tasks for a few days – HE will still give me meaning and value in my life, and joy in the day. It’s been hard for me to accept that in the past, but I know God will take care of the details, and he has a purpose for my life even in the midst of not knowing what tomorrow will bring. And I love Him for that!
Since I struggle with daily pain from fibromyalgia and not knowing when I will have strength for the day’s activities and when I won’t, Matthew 6:33 & 34 has really impacted my thinking. I have not been able to work much or finish college, and every time I start a full time job or try to do something to make money it becomes pretty evident that I am not able to physically sustain whatever it is I’m involved in. This makes money very tight since we live on one income, and causes a struggle inside me to fully give God my complete trust that HE will provide our every need. The other part of this is when I’ve been very sick and bedridden for weeks or months at a time, and loose self-worth. I begin to wonder when I will get well, or I will get depressed about how I am letting my family down since I am unable to care for my family or even be with them at times. This is very hard for me since my personality and greatest joy is being a caregiver and also completing detailed tasks. I find it hard to have joy when people are caring for me; it actually makes me feel worthless.
God has used these two verses in Matthew and also his faithfulness to our family to show me that if I first seek HIM and His Kingdom (the things of God), he will supply. I’ve had unknowing people bring food over at the last minute on days when I was not feeling well enough to cook and wasn’t sure what or how I was going to do that. I’ve had people bring us clothes when I was beginning to wonder how I would get them for us. God really is faithful when we seek him, he has provided so much. But also, he has been faithful to give me contentment in my heart to know that even if I cannot complete daily tasks for a few days – HE will still give me meaning and value in my life, and joy in the day. It’s been hard for me to accept that in the past, but I know God will take care of the details, and he has a purpose for my life even in the midst of not knowing what tomorrow will bring. And I love Him for that!
